Just My Pointless Ramblings

  I want a toy, I want that play station, I want that cycle, I want more friends, I want to come first in class, I want the teacher to praise me, I want to party hard, I want that new smart phone, I want to get drunk, I want to get drunk and high, I want good marks, I want to be smart, I want to go to that college, I want to go to a big city, I want to live in a big city, I want to have a girlfriend/boyfriend, I want to come first in college, I want more followers on social media, I want abs, I want to look beautiful, I want to be successful, I want power, I want money, I want fame, I want to be perfect, I want a nice job, I want a high paying career, I want to live a fashionable lifestyle, I want a big house, I want a big car, I want to vacation abroad, I want to dine at the finest of places, I want to experience the best of life, I want to let go of everything, I want to find my soulmate, I want to get married,...

I am a coward, I am afraid, I am risk-averse, I am afraid of life, of living, I am afraid of uncertainty, I am afraid, That I will fall, That I will fail, That it will all be for naught, That all my efforts will be in vain, That people will laugh, That no one will support me, That my own family will frown on me, That despite all my hard work, Despite all my sweat and tears, It will all amount to nothing. I am afraid, That there is no set plan, Go with the flow, doesn’t soothe my ears, Live in the moment, doesn’t calm my fears, What if it all ends up horribly wrong, Well, that just sounds like my anxiety talking… I am a coward, Because I was too scared to rebel, To rebel for my dream, To fight for it, To walk on the path, For it is filled with uncertainty, I don’t know if I will reach the end, I don’t know if I will be rewarded for my efforts, I was too busy conforming to the norms of the society, So, I took the safer option, I listened to what my well-wishers told me, “For every succes...

I am impatient, I am not ready to wait, I want to take the plunge now, And think of the consequences later, My heart screams, My brain tries to reason, And I am caught in between the civil war that wages inside of me, Breaking me down, Causing me drown into confusion, I want it now, I crave for it now, Rationality has left the table, I fail to remember, That failing to plan is planning to fail, That success comes with rationality, Taking the plunge, Might not always help you grow wings, Going with your gut, Might land you in the gutter too, But at this moment, I don’t think of it, I am Impatient, It might cause me regret, Is it worth it? I don’t know, It is said, Good things take time. But it is also said, Don’t wait for time. It will never be right. It is said, Good things come to those who wait. But it is also said, Don’t wait for an opportunity. Create it. Great! Now I am confused and impatient, Oh, I so badly want ...

 Do you wish for love? Do you fantasize of love? Walking down the aisle into your beloved’s arms? We believe that our scars will be healed by our beloved. That one day someone would come, Who would love you more than you love yourself, And show you that even your ugliest parts are to be worshipped. Someone who would cuddle with you, hug you tight, Hear you cry and in a soothing tone comfort your fears, And kiss your forehead, whispering sweet nothings. You think that you would be the happiest with that person, Your heart will overflow with warmth and your chest will expand with joy. Even if you claim you are cold and heartless and it doesn’t exist, You secretly wish for it and want it.   But love is so difficult… The most wanted and the most elusive, The most sought after but never reciprocated, How does love even work? And why are we so obsessed about finding it? It is like without it our lives are empty and barren, We feel that once we...

Why do I day dream? Why do I fill my day with dreams? Is it a way to live in a reality I can never have?  Or the reality I want but can never get? Isn’t it silly to live in a wishful world where reality isn’t so harsh and unfair, And where love and happiness get a chance… Isn’t fiction a way to get all the experiences we want,  Which reality doesn’t allow? The one prince charming, Two lovely twin children, Three cute and cuddly pets Stolen kisses, perfect friends, dream jobs, loving families,  Rich lives, a home in the mountains, beach vacations, Travels around the worlds, sweet night escapes, daring adventures,  guilty pleasures, stress-free lives, unfiltered emotions, Carefree laugher, party nights, loving companions, Perfect bodies, youthful energy, dynamic personalities, That is what a day dream is.  A permission to live, to be, to do, all that our heart wills. Sheltered from the unforgiving reality, A place far away, with carefully crafted coincidences,...

“Why is the business in Faridabad so down this week?”, the tall well-built man asked with a frown etching across his face. “Sirji, last week four college students died of overdose, after that the police has been on lookout, cracking down on all our distributers.” The man huffed. Stupid kids. “Did you bribe the police?” “Yes, but now the local politician has taken this as an opportunity and has decided to reassure everyone that he will do everything in his power to stop all the drug producers and distributers. He swore that the drug menace will be uprooted from its roots.” “Don’t we pay him a cut?” “Yes, Sirji, he said, let us wait for one to two months, and then we can start again. People will forget. Out of sight, out of mind.” Bloody crooked politicians all of them. “Fine” he waved a dismissing hand and the burly guy left the plush office of the CEO of Nirvana Chemicals. “Stupid kids,” he muttered under his breath, “spoiling my business” What am I supposed to do, ...

“And the Women in Innovation award goes to Mrs. Neha from HPK Limited.” Well, those long-nights did pay off, she thought, as she smiled and walked up on the dais gracefully, and gave a beaming smile for the camera as she was presented with her award. The MC had described her as truly inspirational as he said, “Mrs. Neha has been a consistent top-performer. It is a proof that women are strong, resourceful and better. Under her, the innovation team of her company has filed 15 patents this year. And she has done all this along with being a mother of a toddler.   A woman of great strength and caliber.   Congratulations Mrs. Neha, it is a great pleasure for us to present you with this award. Would you be kind enough to grace our audience with a couple of words.” “Well,” she started taking the mic in her hands, “thank you for describing me with such beautiful words. I am indeed charmed. I would urge all women to do their best and not let anything stop them. Being a woman doesn...