Yours only

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I want to be away from you, because the moment I see you, I’ll forgive you, because I am fucking weak - weak for you. But you hurt me, you hurt me so much, and didn’t give a damn as I pleaded and begged, so now I want you to suffer, suffer as much as I am suffered, as much as I am still suffering.

I want you to feel my hurt, I want you to give as much as I gave to you. I want to watch you get desperate and break from inside just for me. I want the thought of ‘me’ to consume your every waking moment, because when I fell for you, all I could think was of you. You, you, you.  

Now as you call to me, the soft requests, falling from your lips like the gentle murmur of a waterfall, I want you to wait for me. I want you to wait until you think you can’t anymore, and then wait some more… wait till all hope flies away and it is just a dark and despondent pit of despair with you looking up to the opening and wishing for my silhouette to appear because that is your only ray of hope. And I want to take that ray of hope and stifle it, until you are ready to give it all up, hopelessly, as the pain of the heart takes over.  

And when you are clutching on to the last wisp of your sanity, I want to come and be your angel, I want to watch as you grovel at my feet, with tears in your eyes, praying for me to save you because the pain is so much that all you want to do is to die to escape from it.

I want you so broken, so broken that there are no pieces left, only powdered glass which looks all alike, and from that powdered glass, I want to mould you into my kind of diamond. I want to be your artist, I want you to give yourself over to me, surrender with explicit trust, hang on to my every word like I am your God. That is how much I want you to suffer, that is how much I want you to love me. In this world, where death is certain, and you never know when it will call you, I want to be your new lease on life. The love which saved you, ruined you and saved you again. 

Or maybe, I just want you to want me, as much as I want you. A solace, that you are my saviour and I am yours, that together, we can conquer everything, and that only together, there exists happiness.

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 Well... That was intense, but yeah I really had fun imagining a darker, desperate, vindictive kind of love... as I mentioned in my last post, these are snippets, which entered my head, and took residence, until I wrote them out... so look forward to it!

Anyway, let me know how it was in the comments!
 

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