Just My Pointless Ramblings

  Desire. A strong wish. A burning feeling of wanting something to happen. I want it. I want it. I just want it so bad. Why does the heart desire for things which are unattainable? Why do we run behind things which will never come to us throughout our existence? Humans tend to behave irrationally, for beings which evolved from monkeys, who did not have a cerebral cortex, the more rational we got, the more irrationally we behaved. Evolution created a subconscious, which behaves on its own accord, never ever knowing the real reason for ‘why we do what we do’. Desires which don’t make sense. But the desire doesn’t go away, no matter how much you rationalise it. It was like your soul was always trying to reach for something beyond its physical boundaries and mental limitations. If only there was no desire, life would have been easier. But desire drives development, the development of human race. An evolutionary problem. The cause of all unhappiness and happiness.   S...

  I want to be away from you, because the moment I see you, I’ll forgive you, because I am fucking weak - weak for you. But you hurt me, you hurt me so much, and didn’t give a damn as I pleaded and begged, so now I want you to suffer, suffer as much as I am suffered, as much as I am still suffering. I want you to feel my hurt, I want you to give as much as I gave to you. I want to watch you get desperate and break from inside just for me. I want the thought of ‘me’ to consume your every waking moment, because when I fell for you, all I could think was of you. You, you, you.   Now as you call to me, the soft requests, falling from your lips like the gentle murmur of a waterfall, I want you to wait for me. I want you to wait until you think you can’t anymore, and then wait some more… wait till all hope flies away and it is just a dark and despondent pit of despair with you looking up to the opening and wishing for my silhouette to appear because that is your only ray of ho...